Had a very odd experience tonight. I found a song on my computer, downloaded the other night in an apparent daze. It's Mazzy Star's "Fade Into You," a minor alternative radio hit in 1993. If you don't recognize it by name, you're not alone. I didn't either. But I double-clicked it, because, well, what the hell...and out of my computer speakers came this song. This really great song that I used to love back in, well, in 1993, during my formative, high school years. For reference, I'm going to have to ask you all to go out and find a copy of this song, preferably legally through iTunes or some such service (WINK!) and then come back...
Okay, you've heard it. Remember that song? Yeah, it is really good.
But the thing is, aside from just liking this song, I have some bizarre emotional connection with it. It occurs to me that something important or significant in some way happened to me while this song was playing. For a while, I was certain that it's in some mid-90's movie that impacted me in some way, but a thorough Googling didn't turn up anything. It turns out that the song was in Angus, but that movie didn't impact me in any particular way, as I didn't see it. So, it's something else.
Then I thought, maybe I had a touching adolescent sexual blossoming moment with this song in the background. But this is also not possible. In 1993, I was roughly as sexual as Nick Nolte after a 10-day coke binge during a Viagra shortage. I tell you, folks, I was unpopular with the ladies. The Swiss Army got more action than me. I'm telling you, I was lonely. I used to read Ziggy for the romantic advice.
Whew, sorry...Got caught up in a Rodney Dangerfield zone there for a second. Where was I...Oh, yes, Mazzy Star has eaten my soul.
I can't get this song, this mood, out of my head. It's been haunting me for about the last 2 hours now, just putting the song on repeat, ruminating about why I feel such a bizarre connection to it. The last time I put a song on repeat for this long, it was The Smiths' "London," and I very nearly went completely insane.
So, if you have any ideas about pop culture ephemera of the mid-90's relating to Mazzy Star or "Fade Into You," by the way, please do leave some indication in the comments section. I'll be checking it religiously over the next several days, unless I can think of another song to push this one forcibly out of my head. Maybe "The Safety Dance"...
I think the wistful connection to this song that seems to be eluding you is that of the connection between your dick and Hope Sandoval. See, the reason I know this is because I also had a very acute "connection" to this song back then as well. Just thought I'd help you work that one out.
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Yes, I should insert here this Important Safety Tip: Never ever do a lot of mushrooms and then put The Smiths' "London" on repeat for several hours in a small apartment by yourself.
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